dogs & the cottage.

I'm scared to write again, scared to feel. It's been so long, madness has descended and collected and in come cases moved on. I'm no smarter, no wiser, my heart is fuller in many ways, but in most just buried deeper; I still believe without darkness there is no light. I made a "who am I" in grade 12. I said I love dogs and the cottage, maybe it's that simple.

on sleeping with you.

we've been sleeping together a long time.
however, there are a few things I need to get off my chest.
don't get me wrong, I do love you.
I appreciate the kisses and all the attention,
even though it does get a little much.
the issue here is when you are sleeping...
you take up a lot of space
and let's be honest,  you are not that big.
when I try and move you, you growl and kick.
the smells and sounds that exit your body are horrifying.
it's embarrassing, what if my roommates assume it's me?
you're jealous and lash out when anyone else comes near.
you're in and out all night.
I don't know where you are or who you are with.
my bed is my sanctuary, not a flop pad for your convenience.
and it especially hurts when I try and snuggle closer to you
and you get up and leave.
you would rather sleep on the couch than be touching me.
I know you'll never read this, you think blogs are stupid...
but just know, I think it's time we revisit getting you your own dog bed.

some we love, some we hate, some we eat.

In a constant moral battle with myself I am faced with the ethical dilemma... how can I love dogs, eat turkeys and wear cows? In Hal Herzog's book Some We Love, Some We Hate, Some We Eat, he articulates this 'middle' ground I face like many other animal lovers. Like most people, he too is conflicted about our ethical obligations to animals. We middlers see the world in shades of gray rather than clear blacks and whites of committed animal activists. We live in a complex moral universe. I eat meat- but not veal or lamb. I am appose to testing makeup on animals but, would sacrifice hoards of mice to cure cancer. I think Herzog puts it perfectly, "...the troubled middle makes perfect sense because moral quagmires are Ginevitable in a species with a huge brain and a big heart. They come with the territory."

the idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting.

practice and promote anticipation. write a letter. book a trip with a travel agent. knit. read a book. plan a party and use hand made invitations. remember when checking your mail box was a daily high, now it's a daily dread. remember thinking about what your first kiss would be like? looking forward to things are in many ways better than the end product. willpower can say a lot about an individual.
enjoy this hilarious video and smile.

rules of the trade.

never trust anyone who doesn't smoke pot or listen to dylan.
never trust anyone who doesn't like the beach.
never, ever, ever trust anyone who says they don't like dogs.

you meet someone who doesn't like dogs you alert the authorities immediately and you sure as shit don't marry them.

-the wackness


image credit: brooke shaden