it's always you.

"But how did he know that he didn't love her?
I never understood how it could be so black and white. I was never sure if I loved someone. I can love a lot of things about anyone. He might look back later and realize that he did love her. He might like her more than he knows. And she might realize that she never loved him at all, even if she was sure she did. How do you know, in the moment? He'll find out that this whole crisis has nothing to do with her. 
Trust me when I say that everything is always all about you."
with love katie boland and her brilliant fiction from her site. I can't get enough.

just kiss me and get it over with.

tis the season.

winter socials... new night, fresh mistletoe, a different fella.
or should that happy go lucky frolicking be left to the summer heat?
is winter a time to curl up by the fire with someone special or is your new years kiss always a fun surprise?

worry not.

something I can never figure out is worrying about the future.
the future is the only sure thing that will happen in life, so why worry about it?
whatever happens is going to happen regardless of your control.
and say it didn't, say you could control every aspect of your life, what fun would that be?

dear fifteen year old me.

I want to go back and shake the fifteen year old me.
the awkward one in the middle pictured above, at the mall on a saturday, wearing too much eye liner and a thug sweatshirt with tight jeans.
I want to tell her how pretty she is and how everything is going to be okay.
to never keep her opinions to herself, because they are all smart, challenging and unique.
I want to tell her to trust her friends because they will be there through everything and she's the luckiest girl in the world to have them.
to be nicer to her sister, she knows her better than anyone and needs her more than anyone.
to not worry about boys and all the heart aches because for every boy who breaks her heart she'll break a dozen of theirs.
to be nicer to her parents, they aren't out to get her and anything that happens after curfew is never really as cool as the kids make it sound.
I want to tell her that she is not as fat as she thinks. that fifteen year old body is something you will spend the rest of your life trying to get back.
and finally to not take everything so seriously. in the end you are so happy and it has nothing to do with how hard you worked, the parties you went to or who you dated (most of them end up losers). you are happy because of the amazing people in your life and the good things that come to you are just because of the amazing energy you put in the universe.
you still wear too much eyeliner... that hasn't changed.
xox

saturday secrets.

We are what we think.

All that we are arises with our thoughts.

With our thoughts we make the world.

Speak or act with an impure mind

And trouble will follow you 

As the wheel follows the ox that draws the cart.

We are what we think.

All that we are arises with our thoughts. 

With our thoughts we make the world.

Speak or act with a pure mind

And happiness will follow you

-dhammapada

Your secret from Jean-Sebastien Monzani on Vimeo.

fantasyland.

we are madly in love.
we never get out of bed...
except to have adventures and star gaze.
words flow from our hearts
and matters of the mind are not important.
in fantasyland.

picture perfect in the reflection.

there is probably nothing nicer than a boy wanting to take your picture.

tgif.

I have been so off the grid with moving and working, I apologize for not keeping up posts. Internet is now hooked up in the new place and there are no excuses. besides my deteriorating health conditions which are forcing me to tgif with tea under my duvet tonight.
new inspiration is alive and well and I am excited for what it will bring.

candy is not evil.

happy halloween. turning out the lights and pretending you are not home? ... I hope your house gets egged.  New York Times put out a brilliant article about candy being misunderstood. candy is not evil or manipulative... it's never pretended to be healthy it is pure pleasure no tricks just treats.